`Sunday, August 07, 2005;__
jus not my month!
Too much too much too much things happenin
this month! too much for me to accept. too tired
to bother, i'm phisically and mentally TIRED!
i gonna collap soon. i cant seem to be strong.
theres always something pullin me back when
i wanna move on, when i wanna be strong.
this is life i guess. theres always ups and downs.
have been sleeping during maths lesson for the past
few weeks. and miss ng cane to talk to me few
days ago. she asked me if i've given up on maths and
stuff. seriously i dunnoe. i do feel lk givin up but
can i? aint in the mood this whole week if u ppl
notice. i am always putting on a mask infront
of everybody. i didnt want anybody to see me
in this kinda state. have been crying for few nights.
and which caused me not able to wear my contact
lens for the past few days. i didnt feel good when
people look into my eyes. cos my eyes are swollen.
have been really these busy these days. preparing for
the paragon performance tml and also the ndp.
imagine we stand under the hot sun for few hours!!
=X can die okay!! damnit. okay so tml we gonna
perform at paragon.. peep cum and support us if u can
ya? have been out the whole day. went to westview
to see my pri sch band practice. and den later anrd
11 took mr quek's van to my sch for band practice.
veron and ivan waited for me at BP and we went
back home together with joshua too.. hais den theres
this lady she damn fuck up la. bloody Bitch/ not gonna
mention wad she did. fucker sia.
hais so whole after noon stayed in the tan tock seng hospital.
my mum havin high fever and i mean really high ya.
she is now stayin there. gawd. it hurts me to see her sufferin
and yet i cant do anything. i jus cry together with her.
but i noe tt cant solve the problems. somehow i still
cant control my tears. they jus flow down. hais. okay wadever
it is. i am seriously hoping for a better tomorrow each day!.
well i shall stop here. will try to post often. so till
then CYAS... good nite peeps.
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:43 PM;__
